How can she pray for all these people, and not me? Talk to all these people who don't matter, but not me?

I don't think I want to deal with this anymore, or ever again. Because I'm never the one who gives up. I'm the one who gets hurt.

Here I am, hoping she'll come back around to me. Hoping she'll see and truly appreciate all I did for her.

And at the same time, I want to move on, and not care.

Because I DO know I deserved and DESERVE better than what I got, especially for all that I gave.

And then I read on people coming back around, when they truly realize how good things were.

But historically, that has not happened for me.

no longer going to be sanshoryu

new beginning

sanSHINryu

No weakness.

Made the commitment to move on and forward. Tricky part is to stay on it.